Jan 19 2010
Dreaming realistically
because seconds with you are
moments I live for.”
One of the worst experiences someone will evidently face in their lifetime is a break-up. They’re horrible, they’re a pain, and they’re as malevolent as the television portrays them to be. I wish there was a way to avert such a cataclysmic event, but even the best of us are capable of downfall. And that’s exactly how I felt on the very first day of January: alone, dejected and yes, heartbroken. It’s hard to let go of someone you once believed you couldn’t live without, and after what seemed liked years to me, I finally woke up and realized that while I may not be at peace with the unfortunate events that have unfolded before me, I knew that God had some ulterior motive. Some people have trouble admitting they’re wrong, some have trouble succeeding in academic work. I have trouble believing that things will get better.
And who would have thought that my friends, the same ones I knew I could count on whenever I needed them most, continuously stood by my side offering me a hand? I never took them into account, quite frankly because I’m too stubborn to ask for help, but it assuaged my fears of humiliation, because if there was something I hated more than boy drama, it was the harsh truth.
Someone once told me, “You should date your best friend.” This may seem to be the most overrated expression, especially for those who have best friends of the opposite sex, but there are so many benefits in doing so. For example, you know that person (and if they’re truly your best friend you know them real well) so it’ll be easier for you to adjust to the circumstances now provided. Yet simultaneously agreeing to further your friendship with someone can ultimately backfire. Regardless of that, I risked my personal feelings in the hopes of pacifying my depression, and while that may have been a selfish move, I quickly learned that in order to pursue true happiness, the past must not be held accountable.
Delineating on that note, happiness can be found in even the most obvious of places, however many times we choose to overlook it. I may still have trouble believing things will be better, but I cannot lie when I admit that what has occurred during these first few days of the new year are probably the most memorable days of my life. And while so many of us spend most of our lives dreaming of a perfect reality, when everything is in tandem with each other, sometimes even reality can be sweeter than your own imagination.